Some type of DEPTH

I think I have finally figured out the depth of something in my life. By depth I mean I have reached the bottom and it's not that far from the surface. I thought there was more too me then what there was. It was all knowledge though. The knowledge never went past the mind. It never penetrated the heart. The mind without the heart is useless. I realized that I knew a lot about what I believed, but I couldn't get over myself. I was in the way. I didn't see that to have a real relationship with the one who loves me unconditionally I had to step down from the step I had used to elevate myself. A real relationship has struggles, but no one ever tells you that it's ok. Not that you should stay there, you need to be seeking help to learn and move forward. It won't always be easy! But why then is that what I'm being told by the many faces around me. Offer encouragement, but tell me not lies but truth. Junk does happen in your life yes, but most of time we don't make the connection in life to our relationship with Christ. I want to be grabbed, I needed to be grabbed by Him. I can't do this on my own and I am brought back again to my knees begging for forgiveness, which He has granted. Thank you Jesus!