Where'd the time go?

So can I tell you all a secret? Oh well I'm going to anyways...so if you don't want to know just skip over this post....
I (put my name here, if you know me) am absolutely scared stiff to have to grow up. Yes if you would have told me that 2 or even 3 years ago I would have laughed. I wanted to graduate so bad last year it was almost like I was, in my head. I don't know what was wrong with me, but I definitely didn't like the place where I was at. God had me in a place that I would have rather not have been. I didn't understand and I really just didn't want to. My mom kept on telling me God has you here for a reason, but I just didn't want to listen I wanted to do my own thing cuz I thought it was the best for me. Well God had other plans and I'm glad he did. To think I was so selfish in my ways and only thinking of myself, I'm appalled by my actions. After a very hard first semester of my senior year, with the words of wise women ringing in my ears, I began to start to understand why I was stationed where I was/am. Without that little kick in the butt that I so desperately needed I'm not sure what would have happened, but I'm not writing this to focus on the what could have happeneds but on the what did happen. So to tell you what happened this year, I will begin with my little sisters I have adopted in my youth group. I have 4 little sisters, these girls are so amazing they keep me laughing and thinking, was I really that strange when I was a freshman (freshwoman) Just kidding I love them. Even if they don't know it or never know this, they make me want to be the most godly young lady I possibly can so they have someone to look to whenever they need help with anything. If they don't think that about me, I understand I know I'm not perfect, though a girl can dream can't she? But seriously, I remember when I was a freshman and looking up to the seniors but not having the guts to go and talk to them let alone share my life with them! So to be there for them means everything to me, because I felt like I didn't really have that then. On to another amazing thing that has happened this year, I have met some friends who have been around me for many years that I never got to know, which now makes me sad that I didn't find them sooner. They have come up along side me and encouraged me so much with everything that is going on or has gone on in my life. They have reminded me time and time again that God is good and He has it under control so I can just stop worrying already!
The last thing that I am so glad did happen this year is I have re-connected with my friends that have been there forever with me as we grew up together. My bestest bud never left my side and the rest of the gang was right along with her. They took me back when I brushed them aside, they loved me for me and I love them to pieces for it. God showed me why I was here this year for those things to happen and many more...now close to the end of my high school career I'm sad to have to leave soon. I know I have the summer to spend with my friends and it will be SUCH an amazing summer! But if I can offer one piece of advice to anyone still in high school reading this...The time does fly don't wish it gone, for it will be gone sooner than you thought.