the way the cookie crumbles

Why does reality always have to catch up on you? I hate it when that happens. Though I must admit I'd rather live a life full of problems and learn something, then live a life with no problems and not learning anything...in a sense being completely clueless. But it's always harder when you don't know what's going on. This is my reality that I find catching up with me... This topic is evident in other posts I have written, which isn't very many, but still that just proves that I guess I'm thinking about this a lot. Patience is a really hard thing to learn in life and I'm finding it just gets harder as life goes on...my mom always used to say enjoy life now it gets harder. Now being young and foolish I didn't listen and now I wish I would have. Isn't it funny how you don't listen to words of wisdom when they're given to you, but you remember them after you didn't follow them. Weird how we choose to do that to ourselves. Anyways this post has a basic theme, but not a clear direction so I'm going to stop typing. The End.

Where'd the time go?

So can I tell you all a secret? Oh well I'm going to anyways...so if you don't want to know just skip over this post....
I (put my name here, if you know me) am absolutely scared stiff to have to grow up. Yes if you would have told me that 2 or even 3 years ago I would have laughed. I wanted to graduate so bad last year it was almost like I was, in my head. I don't know what was wrong with me, but I definitely didn't like the place where I was at. God had me in a place that I would have rather not have been. I didn't understand and I really just didn't want to. My mom kept on telling me God has you here for a reason, but I just didn't want to listen I wanted to do my own thing cuz I thought it was the best for me. Well God had other plans and I'm glad he did. To think I was so selfish in my ways and only thinking of myself, I'm appalled by my actions. After a very hard first semester of my senior year, with the words of wise women ringing in my ears, I began to start to understand why I was stationed where I was/am. Without that little kick in the butt that I so desperately needed I'm not sure what would have happened, but I'm not writing this to focus on the what could have happeneds but on the what did happen. So to tell you what happened this year, I will begin with my little sisters I have adopted in my youth group. I have 4 little sisters, these girls are so amazing they keep me laughing and thinking, was I really that strange when I was a freshman (freshwoman) Just kidding I love them. Even if they don't know it or never know this, they make me want to be the most godly young lady I possibly can so they have someone to look to whenever they need help with anything. If they don't think that about me, I understand I know I'm not perfect, though a girl can dream can't she? But seriously, I remember when I was a freshman and looking up to the seniors but not having the guts to go and talk to them let alone share my life with them! So to be there for them means everything to me, because I felt like I didn't really have that then. On to another amazing thing that has happened this year, I have met some friends who have been around me for many years that I never got to know, which now makes me sad that I didn't find them sooner. They have come up along side me and encouraged me so much with everything that is going on or has gone on in my life. They have reminded me time and time again that God is good and He has it under control so I can just stop worrying already!
The last thing that I am so glad did happen this year is I have re-connected with my friends that have been there forever with me as we grew up together. My bestest bud never left my side and the rest of the gang was right along with her. They took me back when I brushed them aside, they loved me for me and I love them to pieces for it. God showed me why I was here this year for those things to happen and many more...now close to the end of my high school career I'm sad to have to leave soon. I know I have the summer to spend with my friends and it will be SUCH an amazing summer! But if I can offer one piece of advice to anyone still in high school reading this...The time does fly don't wish it gone, for it will be gone sooner than you thought.

Tag is for kids of all ages

Apparently, I have been tagged by Adelphos Jason, and the game goes something like this..."Each player starts with 7 random facts/habits about themselves. People who are tagged need to write on their own blog about their seven things, as well as these rules. You need to tag others and list their names. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them that they have been tagged and to read your blog!"

Ok well here goes nothing...random I think I fit in this category :)

1.Sometimes I wish I had a photographic memory so that I could save (remember) all the wonderful things that happen throughout the years that I can't remember the next day rather the next year.

2.When I listen to music I separate all the parts in my head...guitar, bass, drums, vocal, piano...once in a while I will miss an instrument or two, but I find this fun and sometimes a challenge. Now I don't do this all the time, because that would be very strange and I'm really not that strange...but I still like to do it

3.I am a magnet for awkward situations they always seem to find me! Some of my every day stories are quite interesting. I think I have a banner hanging over my head saying "if you feel an awkward silence coming on stand next to her".

4.I write songs with hidden meanings. People can think they know what a song is about, and maybe I even tell them "what it's about" but really no one can understand the true meaning of the song and how much it can really mean to me.

5.I really like sporadic foods sometimes. Like eating cereal for super or a late night snack or feeling the need to eat waffles...idk it seems to be more breakfast foods or mashed potatoes :)

6.I was pretty much deaf in the first grade. However I have 20/20 hearing now lol

7.One of my biggest pet peeves is when people drive under the speed limit. It drives me up the wall! See here's the thing,I'm usually always running late for some reason so I'm trying to get to my destination on time, but if some one's going to go 20 mph and slow up traffic to a crawl then there might be a loud scream of pain coming from my mouth as I try to regain my normal composure.

~I would tag someone else, but seeing as I just made this blog and don't really know any other people that haven't already been tagged, I'm not going to tag anyone else. sorry for any disappointment

behind the feelings

Have you ever had the feeling you're on top of the world, but you're really not sure why? I've realized that this is one of the best feelings ever. All I do is smile and everything seems wonderful, though nothing special happened to make me this way it just accumulated. People tend to think that there has to be something behind everyone's feeling and I say why? Why can't we just be randomly happy because we feel like it? I think it's very acceptable :) I think mainly if someone is extremely sad then there is a great possibility that something did happen that made that person that way...but I guess I don't have to worry about that cuz well, I'm on top of the world for no reason at all and I love it. God is good!

Firsts

So this is very new to me, I'd never though this day would come, but here it is. I'm technology efficient...there must be something wrong. No but for real the real reason I want this blog is so I can write whatever I'm thinking down and maybe I'll inspire someone...or just myself, which I suppose would be ok too :)